..Made Free.
.Made Alive..
.the Nathan..
Nic.Nathan
Christian
RJC Year 1.
Rec. Badminton
17+yrs
19 Aug
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed.
Perplexed, but not in despair.
Persecuted, but not abandoned by God.
Struck down, but not destroyed.
2 Corinthians 4:8
gotta
Monday, April 27, 2009, 10:30 PM
its like a battle raging within me..
things i know i gotta do, but i don't wanna do.. i dare not do...
I need the strength, i gotta get rid of my reservations and do what i gotta do.
I have to let myself out... things that i've been holding in all along - now long to burst out. i can't do this any longer (no no i'm not depressed nor suicidal)
Its that feeling I had when I stood on the tower and had to step off and just trust the harness -- i didn't dare, i asked my instructor to count to three. and then i really did take the step of faith.
what came next was pure adrenaline and excitement as i whizzed down the line...
i guess its gonna be the same in my situation. the first few steps are hard.. thn the easier ones come by and soon we're all hvin fun..
i know i gotta do this... it isn't my strength, but it will be- (i don't have the freedom to specify exactly what im trying to say now, but in due time i guess i'll be able to say)
I don't have to fear, for...
"What can mortal man do to me?"
- Pslam 56:4
things i know i gotta do, but i don't wanna do.. i dare not do...
I need the strength, i gotta get rid of my reservations and do what i gotta do.
I have to let myself out... things that i've been holding in all along - now long to burst out. i can't do this any longer (no no i'm not depressed nor suicidal)
Its that feeling I had when I stood on the tower and had to step off and just trust the harness -- i didn't dare, i asked my instructor to count to three. and then i really did take the step of faith.
what came next was pure adrenaline and excitement as i whizzed down the line...
i guess its gonna be the same in my situation. the first few steps are hard.. thn the easier ones come by and soon we're all hvin fun..
i know i gotta do this... it isn't my strength, but it will be- (i don't have the freedom to specify exactly what im trying to say now, but in due time i guess i'll be able to say)
I don't have to fear, for...
"What can mortal man do to me?"
- Pslam 56:4