..Made Free.
.Made Alive..
.the Nathan..
Nic.Nathan
Christian
RJC Year 1.
Rec. Badminton
17+yrs
19 Aug
We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed.
Perplexed, but not in despair.
Persecuted, but not abandoned by God.
Struck down, but not destroyed.
2 Corinthians 4:8
Monday, June 01, 2009, 10:22 PM
today was some rollercoaster.
started off slpy, thn became bored, thn found jie qi n i was cheery all the way on the bus.. thn i got a little angry.. thn i was ok.. thn i got angry again. thn kinda ok. thn reali mad on the way home.
i tink i was staring down ppl on the mrt n at the traffic lights. i dun rmbr much of the journey - was buried deep in thought, and frustration at practically everything.
plus i'm kinda stressing out over cca, pw n cts.. haiz. i know its so early lyk 2nd day of hols...
im totally drained. haiz.. frustration is so draining - feel dead now.
but the ccal trg thing got me thinking abt rec bad. kinda felt down aft the trg thn met jie qi n tt brightened me up.
been thinking about all tt's arnd me, trying to make sense of things. plan out what i need to do, what i can do, how i wanna do stuff.
realised stuff tt i could do better at - thn i started to think about how i became the way i am now, why i'm this way - almost went through a whole list of things to blame while on the mrt.
finally i realised tt its just mainly me - my attitude; nt to say that i have a bad attitude but certain areas are bugging me, and i nd to change
haiz.. its just all the little things - that when i do stuff without thinking n end up in a mess - and reali quite a few of such things that snowballed into all this today.
i gotta think before acting. lyk the times i almost got myself killed.
if not for God protecting me, i think i'd actually have been reali reali gone by now. so many close brushes with things all over the place. wonder how i survived.
lyk i was almost run down by vehicles numerous times when i did thougtless stuff, a couple of close brushes with sharp objects, times when i almost walked right into signboards n posts, having slammed onto a stick tt could have easily punctured my throat or crushed my windpipe,
oh n the near miss of a landing on my last flight - would have landed sideways or had the wing hit the runway.
like all these times God was there to protect me =) but thn i nd to learn to apply the lessons i learn. and apply them for life.
yay i feel much better now. =)
started off slpy, thn became bored, thn found jie qi n i was cheery all the way on the bus.. thn i got a little angry.. thn i was ok.. thn i got angry again. thn kinda ok. thn reali mad on the way home.
i tink i was staring down ppl on the mrt n at the traffic lights. i dun rmbr much of the journey - was buried deep in thought, and frustration at practically everything.
plus i'm kinda stressing out over cca, pw n cts.. haiz. i know its so early lyk 2nd day of hols...
im totally drained. haiz.. frustration is so draining - feel dead now.
but the ccal trg thing got me thinking abt rec bad. kinda felt down aft the trg thn met jie qi n tt brightened me up.
been thinking about all tt's arnd me, trying to make sense of things. plan out what i need to do, what i can do, how i wanna do stuff.
realised stuff tt i could do better at - thn i started to think about how i became the way i am now, why i'm this way - almost went through a whole list of things to blame while on the mrt.
finally i realised tt its just mainly me - my attitude; nt to say that i have a bad attitude but certain areas are bugging me, and i nd to change
haiz.. its just all the little things - that when i do stuff without thinking n end up in a mess - and reali quite a few of such things that snowballed into all this today.
i gotta think before acting. lyk the times i almost got myself killed.
if not for God protecting me, i think i'd actually have been reali reali gone by now. so many close brushes with things all over the place. wonder how i survived.
lyk i was almost run down by vehicles numerous times when i did thougtless stuff, a couple of close brushes with sharp objects, times when i almost walked right into signboards n posts, having slammed onto a stick tt could have easily punctured my throat or crushed my windpipe,
oh n the near miss of a landing on my last flight - would have landed sideways or had the wing hit the runway.
like all these times God was there to protect me =) but thn i nd to learn to apply the lessons i learn. and apply them for life.
yay i feel much better now. =)